Listen. Today I will tell you a secret. Attached to my right pinky toe is a silver thread spun finer than the eye can see. So long that it spans oceans and continents, so strong that nothing, not even saber-toothed tigers nor Time, that masked highwayman, can snap it.The other end is slipped over the curved horn of a very old buffalo who spends vast quantities of time meditating, some might say sleeping (I prefer to give him the benefit of the doubt), in the midst of a once blue lake that has long been under siege by an army of purple waterlilies. Because he stands for the most part with the still grace and perfect indifference of a statue, I forget the thread’s presence for long stretches of time. Like I forget my breath (that other faithful silver filament). But every so often a wayward fly will land on the buffalo’s nose, inspiring that large head to flick itself to one side in a grand, sweeping motion. The thread pulls and tightens momentarily. Jumbled visions dance in my dreams. I see palm fronds on the horizon, rubber chappals in the rain and saffron strands in rice pudding. I see painted masks mounted on unfinished buildings and small, green parrots. I hear my mother’s voice calling my name up the stairs. I hear the honk of my father’s car at the gate. I see my sister’s blue and white school pinafore folded on the bed and I wake with an ache of love and wistfulness. On rare occasions, the buffalo heaves himself out of the lake, dripping water like diamonds. Weighty with wisdom and age he walks on red earth. In the way of all buffalos, unhurried and deliberate. As the thread that connects us grows slowly taut, my dreams turn technicolor. I see children with braided hair burnt orange by the sun, I see wiry street dogs with eyes expressive as bharatanatyam dancers. I see ladoos arranged in golden pyramids, thatched roofs, and mustaches on most of the men. I hear the complicated festival of extended family calling to each other. I see the gap-toothed grins of my nieces and feel their small fingers tugging at mine. I wake with a smile and palms that tingle. Listen. Today I will tell you a secret. The old buffalo is awake. He has been journeying for many moons towards the next lotus-choked lake. And though today I sit here at my computer, sipping green tea, paying bills and settling trifling disputes between the Californian sparrows outside my window, I feel the silver thread at my toe straining East. And I know. Soon it will be time. To go home again.
January 16th, 2014 at 6:21 pm
Oh wow.
January 16th, 2014 at 6:43 pm
Just brilliant! Your writing transports me to those colorful visuals you paint with your words and tugs hard at my heartstrings!
January 16th, 2014 at 7:17 pm
A fan of your fabulous writing!
January 17th, 2014 at 12:26 am
a silver thread wafted out of nowhere and tugged at my being, teleporting me to that lake… perfect!
January 17th, 2014 at 4:00 am
Every time I read a post of yours I think this is the best ever. But then you make sure you prove me wrong always. Thanks for such brilliant ones!! Keep writing! 🙂
January 18th, 2014 at 12:08 am
🙂 Thank you Poornemaa.
January 17th, 2014 at 4:36 am
Such loveliness softens my heart and lifts my spirit!
January 18th, 2014 at 12:08 am
Gladdened to hear this Sara!
February 4th, 2014 at 7:04 pm
what a visual treat while also remaining a sonorous delight!
from a filmmaker in India
hariharan
February 13th, 2015 at 8:00 pm
Pavi, what a beautiful, evocative piece!! Absolutely love it!